From a very young age I have been more connected to the unseen world than the physical world…

I didn’t understand what I could sense. I didn’t know I could feel other people’s emotions as if they were my own. I didn’t understand why I knew things that I had no possible way of knowing. It took me many years to understand that I was sensing (unseen) energy. It took me years to uncover my gifts and even more years training my gifts, knowing how to use them, without being drained and overwhelmed.

My spiritual journey happened over a decade ago. I felt deeply lost and alone. Never understanding or ‘getting the meaning of life’. I had an emotional and spiritual crisis, feeling deeply unhappy and depressed. I went to therapy and started spiritual practices like yoga, meditation and breathwork. Studying and practicing mindfulness.

Born an aesthetic, creative and gifted storyteller, I fell in love with movies from an early age. I spent over a decade pursuing and working as a screenwriter in the Danish film industry. And ended up having “my dream job” that left me feeling depleted, overworked, stressed out, anxious and physically sick.

After years of pushing myself and making it “big”, I had a nervous breakdown and found myself once again back to a very familiar place, the dark night of the soul… Lost, and even more in search for meaning and in desperate need of healing.

Feather, brick, truck…

I heard this story a long time ago… If you’re on the wrong path the Universe sends you a feather. And if you don’t listen it sends you another. If you don’t listen to that one either, it sends you a brick. And another brick. And another. And if you’re still not getting it, it sends you a truck. Now you have no choice but to stop and listen.

My truck was a blessing and ‘the call’ from the spirit world. What seemed like breaking down was actually waking up. A wake-up call for realizing my true path, healing myself and welcoming a spiritual rebirth. It was a call to see and heal all my deepest and darkest wounds. Retrieving lost parts of my soul and connecting to my higher self. It was a call to break out of all the boxes I’ve put myself in and get out of my own way.

For several years I’ve healed, cried, purged all parts of me that needed to be seen. I broke up with an industry I fought so hard to be a part of. Realizing I’m a writer and I love writing, but leaving a toxic business that made me sick was what I needed to set myself free.

What I’ve learned through this work is this: A healing journey is a transformation. You’re not becoming, you’re unraveling. Peeling away all the layers so your true self can emerge. You’re making room for the real you. And every trauma, wound and shadow also comes with gifts and insight.

Over the last several years I have been working one-on-one with a gifted psychotherapist and shaman, doing somatic healing practices, psychedelic therapy and shamanic journeying.

Through ancient shamanic practices I have healed and integrated my own traumatic and uncommon childhood. This is what allows to meet other people in their pain and sense how they can start to heal themselves.

In my darkest moments I’ve cried out in despair asked my spirit guides “why I had all of this traumatic shit?!” Not only the amount of trauma but the wide range of trauma and darkness… They said, ‘because all the shit you’ve had is all the shit you can heal…’

In my readings I experience this truth reading after reading. And these experiences give my life meaning.

The truck was the call for my own shamanic initiation, coming home to myself and deepening my gifts so I can help other people heal.

Healing is not all love and light

And being spiritual is not “love and light”.

Without facing the darkest parts of yourself and integrating your shadow, love and light becomes spiritual bypassing, avoidance and a manipulation game for right vs. wrong. It becomes another label and another (spiritual) ego.

There are some wide misconceptions about being spiritual and believing in something bigger. I meet these beliefs in people every day. They believe the Universe is judging them or punishing them. That they should ‘be a good person’ and a reward will eventually follow. This is a religious mindset and it has nothing to do with being spiritual, “God” or “Christ consciousness” or love...

The Universe is indifferent to “your doing”. The Universe only cares about “your being”.

The Universe is energy, just like you.

The Universe is part of you.

The Universe is one magnet and you are the other.

You attract what you (subconsciously) believe. All your pain and suffering, all the experiences you’ve had in your life (and past lives) has tainted or impacted your beliefs about yourself, your capabilities, your life and what you could make of it.

What I’ve learned through my own process is that healing is not about becoming endlessly positive or avoiding pain. It’s actually the opposite. Real healing asks us to confront the triggers and meet the parts of ourselves we would rather not see and feel.

Reclaiming and releasing anger is spiritual. Speaking up when boundaries are crossed is spiritual. Saying no and walking away is spiritual. Reclaiming your sexuality and connecting through play is spiritual.

You don’t run away from your fears – you learn their names.

There’s always a root cause to your suffering and a missing connection to your emotional despair. There’s always a reason for what’s happening in your life. And the only Universe is mirroring what you hold inside.

And by healing your darkness and your subconscious beliefs you can actually start to feel better. When you feel better you attract better.

You CAN attract your deepest desires, but first you have to get out of your own way and start healing and clearing your energy field… I’m here to guide you and teach you how you can be your own guide.

Today I live in Copenhagen, Denmark, with my companion, my dog Merlin. Every witch needs her wizard…

After years of writing stories for others, I am now returning to my own voice as a writer. Currently working on my first novel, continuing the lifelong journey of exploring the stories, emotions, and hidden worlds that have always fascinated me.

If you’re feeling stuck, overwhelmed, disconnected, or simply ready to understand yourself more deeply, I invite you to book a session. Together we’ll explore what is ready to be seen, understood, healed, and transformed.

I look forward to seeing you and reading you.

Xx Neel